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See “Acronyms” for abbrev.

🏴 MISTRUST = Suspicion  — the lack of trust rests in us, by not following our intuition, observation, experience…. This shows up as feeling a general sense of unease about someone or something, but without proof (yet) WHEN :
• you have no immediate reason to think someone will do the wrong thing, but you don’t have a reason to trust them either
• OR: a person or situation really does seem questionable, because your intuition is picking up a hint from their words, action or manner
• OR: there’s actually no reason to be suspicious, but your mistrust is not deserved (paranoia)

🏴‍☠️ DISTRUST = Certainty — the lack of trust rests in ‘them’, WHEN :
• you have good reason to not trust someone based on your many experiences with them, not just once
• you’re given reliable information about someone or something which lets you know they’re not safe / trustworthy

🔶 UNDER-Trusting (UT) as Adults 
The way we think & react emotionally to how others behave – not even necessarily toward us – has a direct impact on our lack of trust (our Ts – CDs and Es – FoA).  This is usually based on all our disappointing & painful relationships with unsafe adults in the past, mainly those with our parents.

Those experiences can easily lead to a subtle, underlying paranoia that colors everything. Going forward, what’s necessary for mental health & peace of mind is to see & understand who people are individually, not lumping them together as all bad or unsafe.

REALITY : We incorrectly ‘mistrust’ some people WHO —
•  are simply not interested in us. It’s nothing personal – we’re just not a good fit, or they’re caught up in their own world
•  really are insensitive, mean or otherwise unavailable, which hurts
•  are just taking care of themselves instead of focusing on us – at the moment – This may feel like they’re turning their back, because we’re expecting them to be the good Inner Parent for us – as comfort & companionship

Without a Healthy Adult ego-state the WIC in us can’t tell the difference between these 3 groups – so when disappointed, we regress into that old ‘slough of despair” (Pilgrim’s Progress), where “all is cloudy, hopeless & no one is ‘good’!”

🔶 WHY ACoAs DON’T TRUST
a. Abandonment (too many PMES losses)
Because we were raised by untrustworthy people, as adults we’re still longing to be taken care of by someone else. So WE —
— continue to cling to people, places & situations (PPT) which do not have to the inherent capacity to provide even our most basic human needs, much less compensate for all we missed out on in childhood. The combined of old & new deprivation adds up, which can be deadly for us & to those around us.
Accumulation over the years : the less we’re treated with respect —> the more abandoned we feel —-> the more wounded we get —-> the more demanding the WIC becomes —> getting angrier & angrier.

When our core abandonment button is pushed we may resort to using familiar character defects:
• withdraw, sulk, withhold          • be paranoid & accusatory
• get controlling & micromanage     • be clingy & desperate

AND when our anxiety reaches the level of hysteria, we can’t stop ourself from making a painful situation worse, setting others up to fight with or withdraw from us, increasing our sense of loss & mistrust.
Then we say “See, I knew it all along – no one is there for me!” even though in some cases we contributed to it by our behavior & choices

b. Self-Hate – As a result of original abandonment, WE:
Internally: • don’t know who we are, fundamentally
• can’t identify most our needs (even the basic, normal human ones) much less have the right to get them met
• are convinced we don’t deserve to be treated well, so don’t notice or reject anyone who is actually capable of being kind
• don’t trust our own knowledge, experience & observations

Externally: • we stay too long with unhealthy people
• don’t trust that anyone will ever be able or willing to help us
THEN we say “I hate everyone, no one likes me, I don’t belong anywhere”….

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