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1. T.E.A defined (Part 1)
2. ANXIETY (cont)
UNDER: For those of us who try to skate past our anxiety, when something sets it off – we’re deeply shocked, overwhelmed, can’t cope, think we’re losing our mind…… And if we unexpectedly get too flooded, without a healthy way to resolve it, it can trigger an anxiety attack, which is very scary & physically painful
ACoAs will do almost anything to avoid feeling emotions – especially fear.
‘Coping’ styles (escapes):
• keep so busy you can’t feel it (or much of anything else)
• withdraw, isolate from people, refuse help or comfort
• find other ways to escape (internet, tv, sleeping……)
• stay angry so you don’t feel scared
• blame everyone / everything else
OVER: And then there are those of us who are drowning in anxiety – for days, months, years or as far back as we can remember – our constant daily companion. We don’t know what to do about it, don’t know the source & have never learned how Reactions:
• obsess over that you did wrong when upset or disappointed
• search for answers out of yourself to fix your problems
• use various types of addictions to numb any unpleasant Es
• dump on anyone who’ll listen : compulsively go on & on about situations & people in your life that upsets you, without any self-awareness of internal causes, or attempts to make appropriate external changes where possible.
CHICKEN or EGG
Whether anxiety (physically & emotionally painful) has been a life-long black cloud always overhead effecting everything you do, OR an occasional unexpected ‘visitor’, seemingly out of nowhere – 2 important questions come to mind:
Where is it coming from? // What can I do about it?
If you’ve asked yourself these Qs, you may have just shrugged ”I don’t know”.
a. Not everyone is self-reflective. Most people go thru life ignoring or using the list above as defense mechanism to sidestep emotional pain. They’re just baffled & stay that way.
b. Some see a connection between an event (action) & anxiety, but don’t know what it is, & attribute it to something that shows our imperfection :
√ making a mistake, forgetting something, being late, saying the wrong thing, losing something valuable (even temporarily), making a fool of ourselves, failing at some effort…..
OR, more often it’s something or someone outside of ourselves hat makes us anxious :
√ waiting for an important phone call, being called into the boss’s office, a break up, anticipating an attack or punishment, the death of a family member, someone important turning against us, being verbally attacked or accused wrongly, caught in a character defect …..
c. Emotionally oriented ACoAs feel the anxiety intensely, but will only ‘hear’ obsessive thoughts – “spinning” – & assume it’s a way to explain the emotional distress, after the fact. (Suggestion: Enneagram 2, 4, 6 types, & anyone with a lot Water signs in their Astro natal chart – Scorpio, Cancer & Pisces)
Sensitive /emotional ACoAs may assume that a stressful situation is what generates anxiety, CAUSING the spinning (obsessive thoughts) – as a way of explaining the emotional upset to ourselves.
We may use this kind of endless ruminating:
• to beat ourselves up, taking on all the blame for a situation
• to identify how bad/ weak/ inadequate… we’re convinced we truly are & in what way
• to figure out how to fix it, but from a narcissistic perspective (“It’s all about me!”), via people-pleasing, groveling, hiding out, being belligerent…. depending on our personal defensive style.
HOWEVER – the reality of our internal process is the reverse : our harmful THINKING CAUSES our anxiety!
NEXT: T.E.A. & Anxiety (Part 3)