ACoAs – Adult Loneliness (Part 3)

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PREVIOUS: Adult Loneliness (Part 2)

SITE: “The Web of Loneliness


1. ACoA Loneliness (previous 2 posts)

2. DEFENSES against L.
Most ACoAs are not conscious of being intensely Lonely, or when we do feel it, usually assume it’s about missing someone. We’re not aware that many of our ‘character defects’, actions & no-actions are related to defending against this deep & pervasive emotion.

Studies by Chicago U. social psychologist John Cacioppo on the biological effects of Loneliness show that :
▶ Much like the threat of physical pain, L. informs us of our social body, letting us know when connections start to fray, as the brain goes on alert to look for social threats.
Being lonely can drive a range of coping mechanisms, from emotional over-reactions to negative behaviors. Since many lonely people see those extremes as undesirable, they withdraw even more, falling even deeper into isolation. L. doesn’t just make people feel unhappy, it actually makes them feel unsafe — mentally & physically.

• “I’m the only one who feels this way”. Unfortunately all the other very lonely people in the world think the same – but they (& you) are probably either covering it up or hiding out, so we never meet each other, OR if we do – don’t know how the other is really feeling depression . hiding

• “There’s something wrong with me if I’m lonely – a sign of weakness, immaturity, a defect in my personality”. Of course this is S-H. If we’re chronically L. then we have unhealed damage, but we’re NOT defective!

a. COVERING UP (passive)
bad relationships – getting stuck & won’t leave –  even when unhappy or scared, assuming we can’t bear to be on our own, that bad better than nothing
depression – feeling sorry for ourselves, re. loss of support & loved ones, but do nothing, or not enough, to relieve it

fantasy – living in our head, day-dreaming about people, place & things we wish we had
illnesses (real) – artery hardening, inflammation, memory & learning problems, immune diseases…. OR being a =
• hypochondriac (not physically real)
, unconsciously wanting attention & ‘nurturing’ from doctors or caretakers

isolatihalo womanon – fear we’ll be hurt more, never learned to talk or act comfortably, from S-H, guilt & shame, assuming rejection is inevitable
obsessing – who we wish we were with, what we’ll do some day, what we did wrong, what we should have said, what they think of us ….
religiosity / ‘spirituality’ – “so heavenly minded you’re no earthy good”, or being overly zealous about beliefs

paranoia (actually: being everyone’s focus – negatively). The fact that it’s bad attention is painful, but better than none at all!
procrastination – not taking care of ourselves so we don’t feel the L., internally (WIC beaten up by PP)
sleeping – associated with depression, as escape (more than 8 hrs, not from illness or change in meds)

b. ACTING OUT (active)
addictions – this is obvious, & now includes spending too much time on social media inanways crankystead of face-to-face
always angry – gives us an illusion of control, even though not real, so it feels better to be angry (that no one loves me) than the vulnerability of loneliness

controlling – “if I can make everything & everyone be the way I want, I’ll be OK & then not L. & scared”
fighting – any contact is better than none
grandiosity – assuming we can DO more than is possible, pumped up to cover feeling unworthy, making ourselves seem more important than we really feel
always running
over-doing – running, running (even if it’s ‘all good’ stuff), to never have a minute to FEEL
suicide attempts – trying to silence the BAD voice, & can’t bear old accumulated pain, not knowing how to heal it
talking too much – to fill the emptiness, OR when we finally get someone to talk to after stretches of isolation, then a backlog of thoughts & feelings rush out
touchy – easily hurt by any ‘slight’, experienced as a personal rejection, taking things personally & then lashing out, making it harder to connect – even tho we want to

NEXT: Loneliness in Recovery (Part 1)

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