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POSTs: Autonomy & Attachment
SITE: Object constancy (vs object permanence)
BOOK re. S & I:‘‘The UNFOLDING SELF” by Mara Sidoli
As children we are all dependent on the ‘kindness of strangers’ (parents / caretakers). This makes us vulnerable to their personal, social & religious training, so children are either nurtured & loved OR abused & neglected. Even those of us who had an outwardly ok family may have experienced abandonment in ways that others can’t see from the outside
As adults, IF we were originally victimized at home, we have the illusion that staying dependent will get us taken care of, making up for the past. However, the tradeoff is to give up adult rights – to have our own opinions, make our own choices, follow our own destiny
French aristocrat, writer, poet & pioneering aviator Antoine de Saint-Exupery said, “I know but one freedom and that is the freedom of the mind.” We can say that the root of independence lies in our ability to think freely, since to a large extent, our thoughts determine our actions & experiences.
• Some expressions of independence are: being competent, having our own unique voice, acting autonomously in the world – while still being able to consider the differing ideas & feelings of others. It allows us to stay connected without being symbiotic.
Object Constancy: To develop healthy independence a person would have needed a genuine connection with dependable, competent & emotionally available caretakers, starting with a psychologically healthy mother.
🌺 That would result in the ability to remember that people or objects are consistent, trustworthy & reliable, especially when out of the person’s immediate field of vision
THE GOAL of all therapy & other types of Recovery is Separation & Individuation (S & I), the struggle to become an adult**. This can only be done by clearly identifying & expressing the person we were born to be, as part of our genetic & social heritage, yet not a carbon copy of anyone else. Children from healthy families are allowed this process while growing up, so they don’t have to go thru the stress of this particular type of ‘letting go’.
**Many ACoAs balk at the suggestion that we have to grow up (become an adult), because —
— the WIC doesn’t want to give up being in charge. This ego state has allowed us to survive thus far – but with great limitation. Having to rely on ourselves way too early gave the WIC the only sense of power it has ever known & won’t relinquish it easily
— we equate being an adult with being like our drunk & narcissistic parents – either mean, weak or crazy. They were acting out of their Bad Parent & WIC, but never from a Loving Parent / Healthy Adult state. Of course we don’t want to be like them – BUT we are, in the way the False self was formed, using the Toxic Rules & Toxic Roles.
So we can’t look to them for a model of adulthood!
The False Self (FS) is made up of two or more sub-selves that develop from childhood damage – as the only protection we had ay the time. These well-meaning but wounded, comfort-seeking persona usurped leadership from our naturally talented True Self (TS).
It’s not just the mask we present to the world, it’s what we now assume IS us, the only Self we’ve ever known.
As the FS aspects formed, they disabled or stunted our TS. preventing our wise brain/body’s ability to make instinctively wise, holistic decisions & choices, so what we truly think, perceive, feel & how we act – are distorted.
• These sub-selves (FS) have tried valiantly to manage under difficult conditions, & we can appreciate their efforts that allowed us to survive. However, they no longer serve our adult needs, so we can’t afford to let them continue ruling our life.
In our ‘language’, it means not letting the WIC be in charge anymore, by growing the UNIT. (CHART modified from “Break the Cycle”)
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