I DON’T KNOW WHY YOU THINK THAT
(since I never would!)
PREVIOUS: Abandonment Pain Now #3
See ACRONYM page for abbrev.
ABANDONMENT STYLES covered:
Symbiosing, Controlling, Ignoring, Copying, Repressing other’s Emotions, Undervaluing, Idealizing
ACoAs are usually focused on how much we got abandoned, without realizing we’re just as prone to do that to others.
Not surprising, since everyone copies what they learned in childhood. We treat ourselves & others the way we were treated & the way we saw adults treat each other.
➼ Each style derives from a combination of :
• The original role models (parent, siblings & other relatives, teachers…..
• Our own native personality, forming the type of defenses we choose.
BTW – even tho’ we can’t technically abandon another adult, the term is being used here to express ‘not being there’ for someone else
CAUSE : Many ACoAs raised by controlling narcissists were trapped in the state of ‘one-ness’ with one or both parents. We may have felt safe & loved at first, but slowly were engulfed by the needs & demands of unhealthy adults.
As we grew & began developing our own personality, we were slapped down, cut off or rejected outright
The only option we had was to stay enmeshed, without the chance of developing ourselves fully.
RESULT: As adults we look for anyone we can mesh with, to prevent a terrifying sense of aloneness & abandonment carried over from childhood. Trying to connect with others this way is actually a form of abandoning them, because we’re not seeing them for who THEY are, only for what our needy WIC wants them to be – for us. (“Symbiosis“)
• Putting severe limits on what someone can & cannot do when they’re with us (what they wear, where they sit, how they talk, what emotions are OK…)
• Constantly telling someone how they should live their life or how they should be doing something (whether they asked or not)
NOTE: This is not the same as asserting appropriate boundaries regarding what works for you or what you don’t want to be around
• ALL controlling behavior represents our disowned fear accumulated from childhood on into the present
• Trying to micro-manage everything & everyone around us so we don’t have to feel vulnerable, as in our unsafe & chaotic family, & later in bad jobs or bad relationships
• A defense mechanism designed to make us feel powerful & the world be predictable, by hiding our inner mess, trying to make everything exactly the way we want – SAFE.
As long as we refuse to or can’t deal with the underlying cause of this compulsion (& being controlling IS compulsive, fueled by intense anxiety) we won’t be able to stop
Regardless of the underlying reasons, this pattern is:
• disrespectful to others! We’re implying, consciously or not, that we don’t care about the effect our controlling has on the other person – we trample on their needs &/or wishes, because only our needs matter!
If we did care, we’d think twice about continuing
• insulting. We believe they are too incompetent, weak & stupid to make their own choices or figure things out for themselves
• arrogant. We’re convinced we know better than everyone else, about everything, AND have the right to make others do what we want
✶ Of course, trying to be in control of others instead of ourselves – never works. Not only does it not alleviate our underlying terror, but makes others withdraw or be resentful & angry at us – so us feel even more unsafe & alone
HEALTHY “Separation & Individuation“)
• Be willing to deal with our own damage, our accumulated pain & toxic patterns
• Acknowledge that each person has their own way of doing things & the right to make their own mistakes. We are NOT their Higher Power!
• ASK, ASK, ASK: what someone wants, what they need, how they feel, what works for them, what their taste is… We do not have to supply any of it IF we can’t, don’t want to or it’s not appropriate. Just keep in mind that others are separate from us, & that’s not bad – their differences do not negate who we are!
NEXT: ACoAs Abandoning others (#1b)